If you remember me, then I don’t care if everyone else forgets.
My pen bleeds alcohol and the words still spell out your name
as if every drink in my system was laced with your essence
as if every shot was chased with your kiss
I’m writing this in a message to you
because I want you to know how miserable I am
but I refuse to send it —
I will continue to imbibe until unconscious
because this is the closest I’ve been to you
as your essence is in my drinks and your kiss in my shots
and when I am unconscious,
I am sure you will appear in my dreams.